Fussy Father
I have become a Fussy Father.
I need more sleep. I need more time. I need more focus. I need more understanding.
When the baby cries and cries and cries and cries and cries and cries and cries and cries my head gets full of frustration and confusions and hope that soon the baby will relax.
I do get tense. And I have been angry at myself for feeling so tense and wishing that the baby would just be quiet for a minute or at least tell me why he is crying. And when I wish the baby would just shut up I feel bad for feeling the thoughts of not wanting to be a father because I don’t know what my son wants.
I am a fussy father because the baby always cries when I have been holding him. I feel I only get to bond with the baby when I change its diaper or burp it or between feedings when I try calm the baby.