The evening began with -v- leaving me and Ezra for a night out. For the first hour and a half, Ezra was sleeping, so I to got out by focusing on writing and the sounds of the baby monitor.
More than an hour passed then Ezra’s breath became more rapid and deep. Soon he was making talkie sounds with a few beeps and whistles.
Then I remembered I needed to warm -v- milk for Ezra to eat when he was wake, so I stopped writing and rushed into the kitchen to begin to heat -v- milk.
From the monitor, loud talkie sounds distorted the small speakers of the monitor.
I went upstairs, got a fussy Ezra from the bed, checked his diaper (it was clean), and I went downstairs to give him is reflux medicine.
The reflux medicine made him cry. His fussiness became cries of hunger, cries of being tired, and cries of having minty-sirupy-refulx medicine injected into his mouth. Small bubbles formed between his lips during a gurgling cry.
We waited for -v- milk to warm. He cried louder than I have heard in many weeks all because he was hungry and I had not reacted quick enough.
By the time I got the warm bottle of -v- milk to Ezra, he was very red, very agitated, and feeling very tense that bouncing and talking did not help calm his crying state. After the bottle nipple entered his mouth, all crying stopped and the eating began.
He sucked down four ounces of -v- milk.
Normally, Ezra will bed after this feeding. Normally, his medicine is not given to him at this time. Normally, he doesn’t even leave the room and carried through many bright rooms. Normally, he is fed, quickly burped, and laid back down to fall asleep. Normally, -v- is the one feeding him at this time. I know this because it is what I have observed and what I was told when I called -v-.
When he was done feeding he was wide wake after he burped. I tried to lay him down for sleep only to see him flail his arms and legs and make talkie noises with eye lids wide open.
This was not bad but a change of plans. Instead of going back to writing I read to Ezra a book called Divine Creatures, a book about the history and process of the mummification of animals. I talked with Ezra. We did some stand practicing. We talked more. The talk that came from his mouth probably made about as much sense as what came from my mouth. After a couple of hours, he fell asleep.
What typically is a ten or fifteen minute process took about two hours. It was two hours of hanging with Ezra, so I have no regrets with how I used the time.
I just wish I hadn’t made Ezra cry.